One month passed, and I start to wonder my original motivation to this unknown mainland. I come here begging for jobs which I didn’t even think about applying for in Taiwan, rewrite a fake resume to be as an experienced waitress or housekeeper, or try hard to act like an enthusiastic, cheerful, vivacious girl when I stepped into restaurants and café shops to ask for job positions even I know it doesn’t help for finding job.
But I met with two of my best friends here.
I didn’t arrange for this quick reunion, nor did I plan for Brisbane after a short two weeks stay in Darwin.
Not to mention about the miserable night when the ground staff informed us our reservation invalid in the check in counter and we had to spend another 777AUD on the flight tickets, which cost 135AUD higher than we purchased on the website two days ago.
When I decide to wait for two weeks for a packing job, they call the team leader that I can start working the very next day. Fortunately, two of my travel partners also get offers. There is a long list waiting for packing job and I know I must be the lucky one.
Nor do I know the time to say good-bye comes so soon when my travel partner decided to quit the harvest job and moved to Brisbane city center.
Sometimes, things just happen, good or bad, happiness or sorrow.
Sometimes, things have so many sides that I can’t hold all-sided attitude toward it. It already confused me even I only take two sides of them.
Daily life flips through quickly and I start to wonder why I come here for? Earn more money? Absolutely not. I come here to see something different, to broaden my narrow mind, to stronger myself, both physical and psychological way. However, it ends up with a fact that daily life here is almost the same, I get up, wash, eat breakfast, work, earn money, purchase some flesh and cook for meals, sleep for the early job. I felt stuck when I get job and feel anxious if I don’t.
My friend said before I left Taiwan, “You will be not working nor on holiday.”
I started to seek suggestions from my friends. Why they decide to stay in Australia for such a long time? What does their following long-term plan look like?
And what should I do now?
There is no answer for that.
Those problems which bothered me in the past still obsess me, even I already ran away from Taiwan.
My friend said at least I step out of my comfort zone, “you shouldn’t be too hard on yourself, it’s just a kind of transition” What I confronted and struggled with now will one day be my lifelong pleasure.
“You are free and I don’t need to bear those responsibilities and social expectation.”
Just do what I want to do. “It’s easier to take actions than to think about to do or not to do.” One of my friends said.
What I desire for is not a comfortable and easy life. I need to be in a faraway place beyond my imagination, the mosque, the bazaar, the dessert… It should be a hard, tough and dangerous trip. I need to see in person, what those people’s daily life look like? What do they do during RAMADAN? What’s the difference of Dogma between Christians, Muslims, Buddhists and all the other religion believes?
After all of these, the time to pack up everything and bring those stories back home will come.
